i hear you MUE. i am not working at this point either and have done nothing to find a job and have no interest in putting myself out there. people are mean and i just don't trust anyone. when i was working at a grocery store i wan miserable and always in crisis and having problems.i just cant bring myself to do it for any length of time.i have so much great respect for those who go to work and deal every day.because i cant do it. i use to be on ssi but stopped it when i got married . my husband has said i don't have to work but he does want me to be doing something.i think that is a big issue for him and is getting worse. i don't blame him, i should be doing something other then hiding in my home and craft room. i hope someday i will see some worth in most people but for now i am safe at home.