(((Call Me Chris))),

A lot of people that develope PTSD, that is not combat related get confused and tend to feel ashamed that they have PTSD. What you are saying in your thread here is very "common" to how people who develope PTSD talk. And what is also common is how people who suffer from PTSD need to repeat or talk about "how they struggle".

Yes, people who have experienced "being bullied" for a period of time can certainly develope PTSD. And it is common for these people to wonder about how well they interact, if they will say something wrong, and perhaps they are simply "unworthy".

Treatment for this is "very important" because "without" treatment, validation, comforting and support, the suffering person often continues with thoughts of self doubt and unworthiness, which ofcourse is not healthy, nor is it "the truth about how they should really feel".

Human beings are designed to seek acceptance, personal validation, comfort, and a sense of having permission to connect and be a part of groups of human beings, after all, it is how we survived from the beginning. However, we are "animals" and have charectoristics that are "basically primitive". If you observe animals in general, it is easy to see that they also vye for "control and higher position" in a group. Both males and females do this kind of behavior, that was meant to assure "survival of the fittest". However, it was also meant to hold off a male from mating "too early", as an older male is more "experienced" in protecting the group. So a young male learns he is not "ready" but after a time, they "do" try to challenge again. You can see this in many nature programs about animals of all kinds.

Stepping away from "your own persona" and "observing" what takes place with "human animals/primates" will show you that in every school, on every school bus, especially at the age of homonal developement that brings a human closer to being ready to "mate", you can observe behavior patterns that shows the males "trying to position themselves for "control"". It is part of the "nature" of our original design when a strong male needed to be in place to be able to fight and protect the "group".
And there is also a "primitive" signal that takes place that comes to a point of "submission" in order to allow for the best possible male to gain the position to defend that group. And in many "animal" groups the males that come of age to mate, if they cannot "dethrone" the existing male, they are cast from the group to begin the search for their own group.

Flash forward to present day, we have alot of human beings now, we have made many gains in our survival, yet we still carry our original "primitive" design. Today, we still like to see men challenge each other in all kinds of sports. We have "politicians" that we can "watch" display many techniques for "positioning" and control. Often, as we have seen in our human history, what appears as a "capable strong male" can actually lead to "destruction and poor living conditions for many human beings", yet if that male continues to maintain "control", often there can be a "blind following".

Understanding "human nature" and how that "affects you" will teach you that your "personal emotional challenge" "can" be overcome, you do not have to accept the "primitive" signals because often these signals are "obsolete" and "deceiving".
We have seen throughout history, individuals that are not "physically beefed up" to ready for a fight to preserve the group gain power anyway and make "better contributions". We have seen men that are more "intellectually" gifted that have made tremendous contributions to the human race in many ways.

You can slowly learn that "you do not have to accept the primitive messages" of others around you known as "bullies". Bullies do not necessarily make important contributions to society or mankind either. Bullies, are often "fragile" themselves and don't necessarily maintain a long lasting ability to "control" either.

Understanding that you "can" learn how to help yourself slowly gain a better understanding of your personal "confusion" that has left you struggling with PTSD symptoms, is important. You can gain a better sense of your own personal mental health, by learning how to develope better "self talk" as well as developing ways to learn how to better interact with less feelings of inadequacy that are mostly due to being bullied in your past.

You can spend the rest of your life being afraid of "bullies" or you can realize that these individuals will always exist because of our "primitive" design, but that doesn't mean they are "better than" or even "healthy for others to follow". You can choose to do what you are designed to do, step away from these bullies and set out on your own, develope yourself and establish your own group you can interact with in "healthier ways". And in doing so, you can actually "out grow" bullies and grow beyond them as is proven very possible in "all of nature".

Open Eyes