Welcome to PC. I have been battling bipolar depression since I was a teen & I'm now 52 so I can identfiy with you. I'm on medication now that helps quite a bit, but I still had a bad episode about a month ago where I overdosed. I'm still shaky from that. Scared that I would resort to that kind of behavior again when I hadn't done it (thought about it a lot) for a long time.

Are you getting treatment for your depression? Many here have been helped with medication & therapy & some are able to function pretty well without either. I'm definitely in the medication camp, but I wish I didn't have to rely on it.

Anyway, welcome & hope to get to know you through your posts.--Suzy