I've returned to this community after more than 6 months and I'm glad that I haven't lost control since then. It doesn't mean that the matters settled down on their own or I never got disheartened again but just that I've decided to fight back. When we injure ourselves all we need is a bit belief... Belief that we can make difference if we hold on. All we need is to stop taking blames the world imposes on us and start loving ourselves again. The dilemma is people never understand the intensity of hurt that makes a man torture himself.
As I've made it so long, I want to thank all you guys who supported and understood me. I explored that basically I'm an Idealist who was somehow trapped in the cage of darkness and now I can see the light again
In case anybody need my help, he can talk to me. May be I can help to find some hope. Wish you all sound mind and soul!