okay. i've seen three therapists. the first was during college in 2008-2009, i saw her most of that year. she was an intern. the second was a professional who i only met once, last january or february. the third, i start seeing in September and as she was also an intern, she left to return home in Italy in December.

for the two that i saw extensively, it was a once-a-week thing. and since it usually takes me a really long time to let people in, they didn't get to know me very well at all. the very first one said that i probably had clinical depression at the time, but she couldn't say for sure on anything since she was just an intern.

anyway...i'm wanting to try to go to a therapist for longer than a few months this time. i know that something is wrong with me but i don't know what. i want them to find out exactly what's up with me before i decide to stop going again, or end up not being able to afford it. i give up on things easily.

so, any suggestions on what i should be thinking about as an introduction to myself? i have no idea and i don't want to ramble and waste my time. the place where i will be going only allows an hour per meeting. it's kind of BS but i can't afford anything else.

i still have probably another month before i can afford to go anywhere, so that's plenty of time to prepare maybe a journal entry or something. that's what the last professional asked me to do, write in a journal every day.

i ended up not doing that because...well, i don't know why. i guess i didn't want to. i don't know.

what are some questions i should ask myself? what are some personality traits that i should be looking at if i think that i have some kind of personality disorder? because i'm pretty sure that's what's going on with me.

i just want to be prepared. i don't want to waste my hour, you know. that's what i end up doing. wasting my time with people who could be helping if i didn't ramble.

guess i'm doing that now...sorry.