i don't know if i have avpd (or whatever the acronym is, i'm still new to this) and i'm very reluctant to assume things. i do know i have depression but a lot of people get the idea that depression is some teen angst problem and that it will go away. if i told my parents they would probably say that i "don't know what it's like to have real problems" or some crap like that. since i grew up with that sort of mentality blocking me from ever letting anyone know anything about me, that my problems aren't worth anyone else's time...that's why i'm scared to bother telling people.

even on here it's hard. you're probably at least a hundred miles away, probably way more than that, and i'm shaking and freaking out and wondering if i should really reply to this.