Oh 'cause I feel irritable and paranoid and don't want to be social, but at the same time I have the highest self-esteem I've probably ever had and the most normal sleep pattern I've probably ever had. My energy level is normal, and I have ambition, but what motivates me and my beliefs are what people call outlandish, and I feel apathetic towards what other people worry about. I feel like people's way of thinking is simple and petty, and it makes me irritable towards them. I feel separated from the world but superior at the same time. I'm obsessed with human mortality and our similarities with animals. I feel like everyone's sheep and I don't mind being different anymore, but it makes me annoyed when I have to be in the presence of other people. I'm genuinely not depressed though. I love me. I just wish I was the only one around at all times.