I'm really bad with the last minute things and abandonment issues too. I can definitely relate to both. I hate when my husband plans an outing for both of us or invites someone over and I don't find out until right before.

Take care, you'll get through this. Do extra activities that will help keep you distracted. Talk to your boys and text frequently. It's not the same but will help. At least we have ways to stay connected now that didn't exist in years past. Use it to the fullest extent. PM whenever you'd like.