And now I hate him. Because that's a completely reasonable response to someone trying to address my feelings.

Trying to figure out where this is coming from... I feel unsafe.. he has too much control now. Something like that.

He is safe. He is SUPER SAFE. I need to look at what is actually happening.

He's an awesome T, by the way. Maybe I don't hate him. Maybe I need to stop rambling and get some work done.