To be serious though, I do really examine my dreams for what their meaning is to me and try and search myself. It is quite possible and I'm sure common that my emotions are released in my dreams rather in waking, as I do hide most of my problems from I'd say 98% of the people I know. As few and far between as they may be, my emotions are something I am in touch with, when they emerge.

I've even been asked my doctor's and therapists (not in a hostile way) what I expect to receive from therapy, because I have a really lucid understanding of my emotions, personal causes and effects, triggers, etc... Of course, I tell them that I don't know, and that's the problem. Something is wrong, that is certain, but why it can't be reigned in is the problem. I'm just worried whether at this point the lack of sleep in daily life is just creating a cyclical effect, where even if they started from something(s) specific, they are now just being perpetuated by limited functioning as a whole.

I feel like if there is actually a way to treat the sleeping problems separately, even at first, that would help, just so I have the energy to stand up straight and shake the sleep from eyes for some personal clarity, physically and mentally speaking.