oh my goodness this sound a lot like me!

i'm not on medications, but i forget things so easily. sometimes i don't even remember to eat or even if i have eaten. i have had depression issues since i was very young (no specific age) and i get so nervous in some social situations that my stomach ties into knots just thinking about it.

but i am wondering this as well. i have been thinking that perhaps i have borderline personality disorder, but when i read up on avoidant personality disorder, the latter seems to fit me so perfectly while the former i only conform to a little more than half of the "symptoms", and then i think about it and start (i suppose) denying it and thinking that i don't know anything, maybe i should just not post anything...

it's very confusing and i second-guess myself and it's kind of irritating, haha...

it's kind of making me go a little more crazy because i don't have access to therapy or anything for probably another month or more so i'm sitting here just wondering what's wrong with me but can't figure it out on my own because i don't want to make stupid assumptions...

if they don't overlap then it's just going to make things harder to figure out, haha