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Originally Posted by hamster-bamster
I also thought i'd mention since you came on PC and thus, chances are, are mentally ill... there is also the possibility of depression doing you in. I do not deny inexperience being a factor but also consider the factor of depression. I am naturally fine socially, most of the time, intuitively knowing what to say and when to smile and how to be charming, but not when depressed. I lost two interviews a year ago despite having a perfectly fitting resume, and when I look back, I see two common factors. I had strong visible hand tremor from Depakote (which I have since dropped) and I was depressed and lost. So I did not shine. Employers do not want to hire girls with poorly hidden sadness and despair in the eyes and shaking hands. And not just employers. Keep it in mind.
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Thank you but this may be something other than depression. It would be easy for me to say otherwise but I think it's just a problem with me. I was probably doing this before I even had depression. And it's not really a matter of being shy either. It's at it's worst when I am not shy. It comes from a time when all my problems could be solved by opening a book. I became arrogant and now I'm afraid that I hurt someone else because my ego got in the way. And where does a guy like me get an ego anyway?
Regardless I don't even know if seeing a T is possible for me right now. I have so many other problems that such a thing seems like a luxury... But thank you for all your help. I don't know how to fix this but I'm probably going to be on my own.