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Originally Posted by hankster
My T just recently changed my schedule, increasing the number of sessions, totally at his own initiative. He goes out of town for a couple of days and I think he wants to chuck me out. It doesn't even make sense! I'm finally making real progress. I don't know why this thought arises. Last week he said I was worth waiting for. My mother was always telling me to hurry. It's a different paradigm. You're worth it - is not in my vocabulary.
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I can so relate to what you wrote! It doesn't make sense that I have these feelings about not feeling deserving or that my T will abandon me. She has done nothing but be supportive and she trusted me when everyone else in my life didn't trust me to be home (when I had SI).
She has always been there for me but I don't feel like "I'm worth it" or I find it hard to believe that I am "worthy" of my T's time. These feelings usually come up in general when I admire someone/a woman who is strong, smart and caring.