I can't thank you all enough for your encouragement & support..I know what I have to do .I think for the most part being so far away from home has been the thing that caused me to keep accepting his behavoir. We had some good times yes. but , the bad times and the amount of time I spend without him are so much worse.We are great together IN THE MOMENT and when I was in HIS world .HIS house,HIS life ..But he was never really in mine.I live in a very bad neighborhood and lastnight there was a shooting ..while he lays in HIS safe place,,Is he here for me now that Im scared? NOOO and he never has been ..I don't understand how two people can be so good together in oneway but not in otherways? why did he quit on me? on us? doesnt matter now because I will be back home as soon as possible but it hurts to think that he can say HE LOVES ME & never be with me or comfort me when I need him...Its not the sexual part Im talking about its the emotional . He will always turn it around somehow to make everything my fault..I know that I need to get away and I also know that I should never give someone so much power over me ..I CAN DO THIS !!! its been a week and I know im going to go through different emotions but I need to stay strong ..please stay in touch . I read post everyday and need some positive feedback..thank you soooo very much