Sounds like he's holding your terror in his hand.. gently.. and you're feeling that exquisite sense of knowing he gets you. Emotional intimacy. Our fears of rejection/abandonment laid bare.

I recommend that you figure out how to let yourself just rest in his care. It's not an easy place to get to.. but when you let yourself just rest, unguarded, you will realize you've jumped the great divide and are well on your way to feeling substantial healing.

He sounds like a gem. And you deserve this experience.