Thanks everyone. It never really occurred to me that I might have made him feel rejected. And thinking back, I probably reinforced the rejection several times, starting with when I suggested he leave. I've had issues in the past where I've accidentally offended a guy's masculinity. I also agree that there could be millions of reasons as to why he isn't talking to me now. I suspect that it might have something to do with a recently ended relationship of his, but I'm not sure. I really would like to open a conversation with him though. I know meeting in person would be good, but he's hours away now. I've been trying not to think about it, but to me it's still actually kind of a deal, and I'm wondering what he thinks. I want to hear from him, but don't know what I should say or how to contact him to get him to talk to me. I don't want to seem annoying either. I'm totally prepared to be honest with him if I get to talk to him sometime.

Also, the guy is 19, for who asked. I did tell him that he should text me sometime, but maybe that wasn't the right thing to say? I think talking is a good idea, but I also feel like I'm almost over it. I don't really think I was ready for this. My feelings change every day about it. Sometimes I think of some things we did, and I can't believe I actually did those things and I feel so slutty about it. I can't talk to most of my friends about it because most of them are virgins and they don't even know the guy. Part of me wants to forget all about that, and try harder to stop before sex next time, and part of me really just wants to find a new guy to have sex with, as if that would make this experience seem less significant. I care a bit more than I thought.

Every time my phone buzzes, there is a tiny hope that it might be him, and I'm slightly bummed when it isn't. Don't like it one bit. How long from the last time I messaged him would be appropriate to contact him again without being smother-y?