My T and I have talked about how I avoid talking about the deeper issues of my life. Today was one of those days. I just could not bring myself to say what was on my heart and mind. If I did, I'd be crying hysterically, gasping for air, coughing, and leaving with pink puffy eyes. I haven't told her but I'm scared to cry uncontrollably. I'm scared to let go and totally feel in the presence of someone else. I've never cried that hard in front of anyone and I'm SO scared although it is so needed. I'm also so scared of my tears because I'm scared I'll stay sad and that's not a good place for me. She's so nice and I want her to know that I'm trying but I'm scared. What do I do? I have 7 days until I see her unless there's an emergency which I don't want.