I totally understand where you are coming from on this! I have teared up and quietly cried on occasion in T, but I have never sobbed like I have wanted to at times. I know it's in there, but it's just too far under the surface to come up while I'm in T. I don't think I've ever gone deep enough in T to even touch for a second the deep, deep sadness inside- and I'm not sure I ever want to either.