wow I'm actually posting something positive lol

I had a really good session with my T last night. Last week I posted about how I'd had an upsetting session where my T spent the hour telling me about how I was doing everything wrong, which is not what I needed when I was already in a bad state. I kind of wanted to tell him about how I felt when I talked to him this week but I chickened out. Thankfully he brought it up. He said that he realized that I spend enough time beating myself up on my own and I don't need someone else to beat me up. He said he won't do that anymore and that made me feel good. He also said that my negative attitude towards myself rubs off onto other people and that was part of the reason he took that attitude towards me.

Later on I said something about not having enough self discipline to stick to taking good care of myself, and he said "That's ok, that's what I'm here for." That's one of the nicest things anyone could say to me honestly. I also liked it when he said that I shouldn't feel bad about all my friendships not working out because I'm just at a point right now where they're not going to work out. Forgiveness and acceptance...that's what I've been missing. I hope he can be a positive influence in my life and help me with my issues.