((Thank you MudCrab))
I know some what of how it may be with having too much going on, but at the same time, I like to understand things too to help cope with that all that is going on...

this Link Is Book Marked!
The guy's video was like omg, i think this is what i am looking for!

I find this really interesting...... I want some more understanding...

(My dad used to talk about how i often times said "we are ok" when I was little a lot, he never really teased me about it, but at the same time he made me very conscious of it- even though I may had changed my way of speaking in reference to self-- the parts never just disappeared)...

think i am curious more than skeptic

thanks again!