Hi survival,

I can't say I've ever felt just like that, but I have had some fantasies along those lines.

Do you think it's a direct result of low self esteem.

Maybe creating a scenario in which you are a hero because you don't expect to be accepted for who you are?

Just a thought.

Maybe when you are able to accept yourself and see the good in you maybe you can move away from this mindset....

just a thought.

glad you brought it up and that you are fighting it.