Hi hezaa, I have answered your threads before and just now I went through a lot of your other threads. Did you just change T's? What I noticed with your other T was that it didn't seem that you had worked through growing up with your family? I also noticed that you mentioned a few times in these threads that you thought you could work things out with your family? From what you wrote about your family I would say that you are going to have to heal on your own and not through your family. You can't get orange juice out of apples. It seems that your family is unable to give you what you need because of their own dysfunction. Finally, I noticed that you have a lot of insight into yourself and what happened to you. You mentioned how you needed more guidance and structure and just plain interacting from your parents. I'm a big proponent of child development and when our parents aren't able to give us good child development we need to catch up as adults. So getting better involves doing an inventory of what we didn't develop as children and then working on this stuff.