Hey lost
I have tears in my eyes as I read this. I dont want you to feel so alone!!!! Sometimes it seems that way. But if you ask for help, people are pretty good. They will help. Pleeeeeeessssseeee call someone. You can remain anoynomous (sp). LIFE IS WORTH LIVING. I felt like you did one time or another. And Dex is right, when your depressed you tend to have blinders on. Dont give up honey. You definately are not alone. Keep us posted.
You have made a mark in my life already and I dont even know you.

"you only have one chance to make a first impression"