that's a really interesting idea .... I guess I started off basing my self esteem on other people's comments of me. Then I moved to my academic achievements. Then back to other people's comments. Then my T helped me see I could maybe be more flexible with my self esteem. Like if I was tired, I could sit down. If I was hungry, maybe I could eat.

I remember the day I first went for a chai tea at starbucks because I was hungry and thirsty when out! I had never felt a physical need like that and accepted it and gratified it. WOW!! :-) That moment still blows my mind away. the beginning of a journey. I was terrified of what the people in the coffee shop thought of me... if I was fat ... how many calories were in the drink .. but it was a BIGGG step. Go me !! :-)

My self esteem has taken the HUGEST bashing lately as I have had to stop the majority of things I based my self esteem on - my uni course, my charity work, my relationship with my boyfriend, my dieting .... all gone cos I got so ill with M.E. !!

Now recovering it feels like I am rebuilding myself in a different place ... and actually thinking maybe I still can feel good about myself even if I do weigh more than I used to ... even if I am doing 'nothing' with my life. Enjoying things for what they make me FEEL rather than what other people think of them ... whether or not I can measure them .... wow.

It's a whole different realm. Realising I am what I think of myself. The more I love me, the better I feel. I can change how I view my world.

I promise you it's the most amazing journey. I never know where it will lead - but it's always fantastic!
Try it!!

xxxxxxx