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I know back when I was SEVERELY depressed, I don't really know why, I don't think ...(it was like 10 years ago) I do remember being at a convention and we were housed on the 12th floor of a hotel and that was hard because I kept picturing,...well you know.

I know the URGE to die was STRONGLY there, along with some other times. I was really drawn eerily to windows in high up places, and then would get a panic attack, so I think deep down, I knew there was a chance I would do it but was Afraid, so therefore wouldn't follow through. Even though I pictured it and longed for the supposed peace it would bring.

I don't know, though, like I said I haven't had suicide thoughts in a while now, so I was just pulling from what I can remember, since it was so intense. So I guess I didn't really go from thought to action. But I imagined it quite often, and wanted it.

In the end, I am glad I stuck around.............................................

Hope this answers a bit for you?