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Originally Posted by costello
My son too.
What makes me saddest is even if there's no one there judging him, he images a judge. He'll be thinking, "What if so and so were here? What would he think about what I'm doing now?" He can't ever relax and enjoy himself when he's completely alone. Or, not even enjoy himself, just relax and not feel like he has to be 'perfect' - whatever that is.
Every once in a while he gets a little playful with the dog or the cat. He reminds me of when he was little. He was such a sweet little guy. Even a bit of a flirt.
Then he just closes down again. No, he doesn't close down. He stiffens up. That's how he is. Seldom relaxed. Usually stiff - the way you are when you're very self-conscious. Like when you're walking across a room and everyone is looking at you and you become so self-conscious you almost forget how to walk.  |
Your son sounds a lot like me. I always am thinking someone is watching me and judging me even when I'm all alone. It's really hard to relax. My husband always is telling me to relax. I was judged a lot, as a kid. Severly bullied. Like, you hear those kids on the news that commit suicide from bullies. That was me, except of course still here, and that was before Facebook, so bullies actually have had this power all along.
But, I just want to tell you because I don't know if your son can tell you, that you're a good mom. He's super lucky that he has you as a mom. So, don't feel bad about not having all the answers for him beacuse you do better for him than most people do for anyone.
