Bless your heart Seeker. I was much like you, although I lavished love on my kids, I really didn't enjoy "outings." I think I lavished the love on the kids because I didn't get ANY as a child. All us 4 girls were totally ignored. We were treated like furniture -- just "there." It would have been nice to get dusted off once in awhile. LOL So I made sure the kids knew I loved them, but I just hated "outings." I don't know why.

My parents took us to northern michigan every summer for 6 weeks, and we had a blast. But they didn't do anything with us -- they just turned us loose on the beaches. We met other kids, and were on our way. The rest of the year at home, we just played with neighborhood kids -- my parents didn't have to worry about us. Our neighborhood was "safe" back then.

So I know how you feel. I haven't been that great a grandmother as far as doing things with my granddaughter -- but at 17 she loves me to death! We had a rough period in her early teens, but that's to be expected.

I guess in the long run, we're "okay." We tried, right? We did our best with what we had. God bless you Seeker and take care. Hugs, Lee