There are several things that are helping me not allow not eating to have control.....one is that even though my stress level is high, it's lower than it was when I couldn't eat.....

And most important is that I am the only one responsible for the care of my 4 dogs.....they need me & I need them & I know that I can't allow myself to get to the place I was, living alone, I can't just end up passing out or getting too weak that I can't take care of my dogs. I just lost my oldest eskie last Thanksgiving & I was giving her a major amount of care the last few months of her life & I needed to be strong & healthy to care for her......when we have major responsibility for others than our own life that are depending on us because they aren't able to care for themselves (doggies give unconditional love but can't dish out their own food or take themselves for potty walks or measure out their meds). Being responsible for others & not having someone else I can bail out & have help me has definitely made me more responsible for my own life. I still blow it at times & forget to eat at times....but I end up keeping my weight at a safe place because I know I have to for my doggies lives & for their love.