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Originally Posted by 9dee9
Thanks for responding! Today is a new day and im starting to feel better. I spoke with my boss and my boyfriend. Im not going back to work right away...but I tried to explain my actions as best i could, and hopefully they understand. I just need a little bit of time to feel strong again. I am trying my best to stop all the bad thoughts i have about myself. I think i will contact my dr. and speak to him about getting a referal again to see a therapist. The only thing i dont like about that though is by the time i get in to see someone, this will be done and i will feel fine again, then i feel like im wasting there time does that make sense to anyone? My biggest problem is always what other people think and i dont like to feel like a burden to anyone, or put anyone out, but then i will do a 180 and say nasty horrible things because they are makink me feel that way. oh my goodness im getting all confused again. I am feeling better though and its nice to be able to come here and share my thoughts.  |
Wow!! Good for you!
It can be soooo hard to reconnect - I really admire that you could get to a place to allow you to do this.
Boy, times like that are just so hard.
I do notice that when I end up connecting with someone at some point, I feel better. It took me a long time and therapy to be able to see this.
So when I'm in a dark place, now the thought will come to me that if I can somehow connect, or reconnect, in some small way, it will build and I will feel better. It is hard to believe while in the midst of it, though!