I'm definitely not going to tell my parents. It's not only the fact that I had sex that I don't want to tell them about, but also the who, where, and when. I don't think they'd be interested in reporting him for statutory even though the age of consent is 18. I'm almost positive that they wouldn't because they didn't want to report when I was actually raped as a child, so it would be messed up for them to do it now when I was actually okay with it. Different story. On one hand, they know the guy pretty well, but I can't deal with them knowing. Not now.

The earliest I might see him is in three months. MAYBE. It could be a lot more. The last time I saw him before this time was early June. I normally see him about once or twice a year, but I might go to his college or a one close to it. I get really nervous about phone calls and never make them. But maybe he wants me to call him - it would probably seem more respectful? I think I'll talk to him soon, but I just over worry and over think things. Hope I come off the right way. I feel like if I reach out twice and he still ignores me, I should get over it. So I want to say the right thing this time.