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Originally Posted by LolaCabanna
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For those who have had thoughts of suicide or attempted , do you even know why? Like can you put your finger on a reason? What makes one go from thought to action? Did you really think there was a chance you may die? Just some questions I am looking for input on. Thank you in advance.
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At the time of my last attempt, I knew in my mind that I was never going to get any better, and I couldn't continue to be such a burden to my family.
I really did plan to die that night. I od'd in a big way, I don't remember anything after that. I woke up in the hospital a couple days later, on a respirator, unable to speak and be understood, and my body totally out of my control.
Reminding myself of how I felt that second, when I woke up and had no control, feeling locked in my body is why I have not attempted again. I have certainly wanted to, but I got help instead.