I haven't had a suicide attempt and lost custody, or given up willingly custody of my children and I would not consider having a child over 40.

You have had your children.

Thinking abortion before getting pregnant? I do understand and I don't know what I would do, but I wouldn't risk it in the first place.

It may work for you, but maybe you are at a time in life that you can enjoy just for you. You are dating and having new experiences. Is that maybe enough for you?

Whatever you do, please try to continue enjoying this second chance that you have.