She sent a text that set me off and I responded:

Sue:
I'm glad you had fun with Tasha I ended up having fun as well, so no worries. But next time let's try to stick to what we agreed to do? Are you going to go to Rupert blinky party?

Me:
Don't try to control me I'm not into it. I meant u no harm, my plans changed I tried to talk to u about it and apologized and u yelled at me. Last year I bought u a Wailers ticket and u bailed to see Robin I didn't try to control u or hold u back from what was a better opportunity for u. Stick to the plans? No thanks, Plans change sometimes, u can't control everybody. It's too overwhelming I've got enough problems as it is.

Sue:
Oh sorry I wasn't trying to control you I felt bad that I couldn't get together with you please forgive me
I know you're feeling overwhelmed with everything that's going on at home. I'm sorry that this whole thing happened, friends?

I will decide how to respond tomorrow. And her 2 vmails will sit there too.

I'm so concerned for my son and upcoming jail time, he's not stable, he's hypo heading to manic right now. He won't do well in jail. But then again he was clearly told the consequences of further drug use. They can make sure he takes his meds and does school while in there, they say they have pdoc and therapists.... But I don't feel safe about it. I don't get to know anything that goes on in there, I'm used to psych wards with him. I highly doubt he will get quality mental health care in jail I'm scared.

I'm on 2nd night without sleep. Trying to sleep for 4 hours now. Over this space of time I've tried 2 ambien, 2 Klons, 2 benadryls, a tiny cup of box wine that my mom had hidden - yay mom! But still no sleep. I need to sleep I must work all day tomorrow, Friday will be the court day. I guess I'll take more klon in a bit if I'm still laying here awake. My mind won't stop. It's hypo but its situational. Sleep please visit me, rest my weary mind.