I know exactly what you are going though because I have been in a mixed state for almost 5 days now. This has by far been the most trying on me since I was diagnosed a year ago. I didn't even know what a mixed episode was until the past couple of days and some heavy research. I just want you to know that you have helped me tremendously just by describing your feelings and actions. I have been in a similar situation once where before I knew what was happening I had my hand raised to my wife...by far one of the most traumatic experiences in my life. By the grace of God I stopped myself before it escalated any further, and honestly that is one of only two times I have actually be saddened to the point of tears since I received my diagnosis.

How long did it take for you to return to a 'baseline' state? Have there been any medications that have helped you with the depression/agression that accompanies a mixed state?

God Bless,

Travis