I have been trying to get better for the last 25 years to get better. Some things I have done have caused even more trauma.

Now each time I see a GP, T, P'doc I have to deal with the crud it draws up. Then it gets to settle the off it starts again. I just want to stop. I dont want to see anybody any more. Yesterday I ended up doing some stupid things just to get rid of the physical and mental pain. I don't want to do this any more.