ok...

first...you can call me james.

the mind is a maze...a-mazing!

(I sure didn't mean to dis-hearten you)

lets face it ....you are already on a seriously difficult 'ride'
compared to before this event in your life there were perhaps concerns but they are tiny imperceptible

the mind is amazing...if you drift into medicine with hopeful expectation then it can work for you.....at least it's an option yeah!...

...cycling and bipolar swings...episodes have little to compare to whats going on inside your heart!...

not even the craziest mind can touch that....

so?...perhaps it's worth a go.

my guess is you still want to function?...and thats a crazy beautiful thing...
and thats all antidepressants are able to do as long as thats all is expected...they don't necessarily make 'you'...'me' ...happy.

they are an instrument...discompassionate...but effective...
and if thats what it takes to get you through this painfull time?...to function?

then it's better than the alternative ...and thats ok...