yeah I sure understand that feeling and being fundamentally impulsive...

...so often I have gone cold turkey...(whatever that means...always wondered?...warm up that damn farm animal!)...[sorry]...lol...

just ignore me when I drift

anyway...

multiple medications ?....imagine walking blindfolded miles away from your home!...thats what they do...you know that...I know that.

imagine a personal life without questions?...
I take my pills on the button everyday but I resent it...but if I want to feel the real?..

then I have to do it right ...

cos the thing is...our brains run on chemicals and we have to be careful how we make the adjustments we want and likely need to make.

...and these decisions are always made when we are feeling stress...when we are feeling pain...

it's very hard to do things slowly...especially when I am in a hurry...and all I know is fast