Dear T, lots happening today. need to talk but more afraid of talking. like i need to get everything calmed down before i can relax and feel safe to share. when i feel like i am getting cut off when talking about important to me, the safety disappears.

and since i am planning on quitting in July anyways, maybe this is a good cutting down point.
i appreciate you calling, but i felt like an idiot. did you know what was coming????

probably. sorry. i am going to fix things for the future. it is what is best. i cannot be here when my ex gets out of prison. he will destroy me all over again....i tried telling you, but you just aren't getting it.... so that leaves me all alone. tough when you have a t....