Broken Thank you so much for your support. You are correct on alot of things. He has made it wo where I have no trust in myself or my own abilities. He has beaten so far down emotionally. I am having a most diffficult time w/ that first big step.

I would just leave when he is not around, but that brings on another whole can of worms. Abandonment, I do not have sole custody of the kids. So That could lead to a different kind of trouble. In our county you can only file a petition for custody the 1st and 3rd Tuesday from 8 - 10 am. We live in a hick town. I don't plan on making a break for it, but then again who knows what one may have to do. In a perfect world it would be nice if it were mutual. He knows the cards are on the table. He is aware that I am unhappy. His actions make or break the deal.

I'm really gonna have to have the T's help w/ this one. I feel bad for her because she is gonna have to help me whole bunches. I will truely need someone to push me and then hold my hand as I go. That will be tough shoes to fill. But if anyone can do it the T can. I just don't know how I'll pay her once the man w/ the money is gone. I got to many things to think about. Gotta go ,I'm writing down q's as they come to me.