((((Mama)))) I can relate to feeling as though you cannot trust yourself and your own judgment. I struggle with that in spades.

I am starting to notice - very slowly, slow going when you start out with such small / little self esteem - the better I know myself and set clear boundaries (esp with difficult people, instead of trying to pacify them), the better chance I have of attracting the "right" people into my life.

Before, I swear I had a neon sign on my head flashing "sucker". As I have become stronger and more at peace, I have noticed that people that would have normally made a beeline for me, no longer do so. In fact, it happened the other day...a strange man came rushing up to me in a parking lot and got about 10 feet away from me, I looked him square in the eye, and he immediately turned to the right and walked the other way.

I took that as a positive thing.

((((Mama)))) take your time, speak with your T, put together a solid support group IRL, come here for support (you have a big support group here)...

...soon you will see what we all see - how wonderful you are!