Amatter, you are so sweet! Owning up is awesome. I have also been triggered on this forum a few times (and it was helpful to work through it).

Thanks for seeing that I'm trying to work through this .... This actually brought tears to my eyes because just a few minutes ago I realized something about what is going on with me about this.

The issue that I'm dealing with IRL is volunteering and helping or just being nice to people IRL no matter what (turning the other cheek) and then getting hurt from it sometimes. My husband has a saying that no good deed goes unpunished. At first I said "No!", but then I started seeing that there is some truth in this. I'm getting better at seeing this now. I'm sure there is balance in all this and this is what I'm navigating right now.