I really sat here and consumed your feelings cos they materialise in all your words...and I must be in a miracle state of mind to cope with all the pressure....

cos thats what happens ...

and I can shut down in an instant even less than that!

feelings hurt even the good ones hurt even more than the bad ones...

and it puts my head in my hands ....just so quick it happenend
and it's back out again I cannot handle it!

there is no easy answer it's not even a question like it could be like a drifter madman maybe like a drifter madwoman maybe maybe we could all go completely crazy like we all have again and before all over like nobody saw it the first time blind idiots!

I wasn't even looking and even if I watched what would I see??

idiots!!

you and me can drift and watch them watch us...

and pretend even we don't even know whats goin' on!

but we do...!

maybe thats the hardest thing?