Thank you very much guys for your replies!

Perna, you are right. I need to try and concentrate on myself as much as possible right now and get a good job.

I've had many people tell me the past few days how I should seperate myself right now. I've been told it will help them understand what is like without someone to be close by to help. One of the main things I'm worried about is that because my Dad takes percocet, he has on several occasions been eating and talking at the same time. This leads to him choking and me giving him the heimlich. Yeah, it's been that bad.

I don't know. I think even the process of moving out of this house will require me to have therapy! Like I've said, my worst nighmare is getting that phone call that an emergency has happened and I'm not close by enough to get there in time.

By the way, the older sibling that's a nurse has been called in emergencies before when I really needed help with the parents. I found it unusual that at those times, she chose not to drive my car over but when I was desperate and looking out the window to see if she was coming I would see her walking slowly down the street smoking a cigarette. These were real emergenices too. I REALLY need to figure this stuff out

Now I need to make sure I'm going to the right therapist