Today was a very lighthearted session. We sat and talked about, work, life and stayed clear of all the things that upset and trigger me. T asked me what had happened since last time I seen her, nothing I said only the same things that always happen, like work.

I wonder sometimes what t expects to happen in a week. My last T told me I wasn't making any progress because nothing different was happening in my life, she wanted me to change something every week. T has never asked me this and I wonder if she is wondering the same thing and will it only be a matter of time before she terminates me too.

We talked about my plans for the future, I can't see into the future at the moment because its too far away and right now, everything is black. T said it can be close and we can change the colour of it too.

I was telling t that I used to paint and am very creative so next week I have to paint a picture for her so we can work on it. I am looking forward to this as I have had a creative block lately.
I don't really see any progress in my life, only how I react to things differently. I don't get upset over things people say to me anymore.

I am not sure t is helping me anymore, I am not sure therapy is helping me. I feel frustrated with my situation right now and I think therapy is keeping me stuck here in the bad place right now.