I always notice you Karebear. I feel very invisible too. I'm struggling so much myself, that I think when I try and post something helpful, I just sound condescending...and ignorant. I don't feel like myself and I'm not doing very well.

And on the topic of anger, my T is sure I'm unconsciously angry. She's always wanted me to express it too, until she gave me a reason to be angry and then she was just angry, defensive and felt pushed away in return.