It's so bad with T Karebear. I hope we can fix it despite everything. She's the only person in the world that I've been attached to, so this is killing me. It's been the worst thing I've gone through. I don't even know how to explain how bad it is. It started with the session where she got really angry. She raised her voice, told me thngs like I wouldn't be a good mother, compared me to my own mother, to her other clients, yelled that I wasn't trying multiple times (I was trying). I've never felt so horrific in front of another person in my life. That was just the beginning. So many hundreds of things have gone wrong since...but then she hears me, hears what it has done to me and hear what I need and she gives me hope. When I give up, she comes back to me. When I return with hope, when I'm really trying...things go so badly wrong again. Suddenly I can't trust the one stable, helpful thing in my life...because it keeps changing on me. She's my one person.