I'm all over the place ....

like it's a free trip!

nuthin' is for free...mania sends me an in'voice'...and I never said nuthin'

so the only option is to rip everyone else off!

unless you care?...of course!....goes without sayin'

and the minutes tick by and the more vulnerable I become and the more meaningless are my efforts to cope!

and it becomes surreal and perfectly crazy like I was never meant to be in this psychological position....

I still feel guilty...a bit

I don't know what I'm meant to do about it?

things can get better perhaps...but I never expect that...

I trust things will stay the same....worse makes stupid sense

and if you know me...then you would know I have flipped...just a little more than less than alot more than what is obvious and I'm sorry