Repairing ruptures is what's helped me the most in the past. It's healed so much to know that we can survive them. This time though, it's been constant mistakes since October. If we survive it, it will be a bit of a miracle. The relationship will definitely be stronger, if we make it through. If we don't, I'll have lost my one person, she'll have given up on me during the worst time, it won't feel like she's out there anymore, and she will be completely gone from my life. I'm really afraid about what's happening.

Yes, I'm still trying (please let it work).