button, i hope you read back over what you wrote ... as cantexplain pointed out you shared some of the progress you are making along with saying you aren't making any i know sometimes we expect and T expects (or at least hopes because they want things better for us) the big changes, the ones that jump out and shout PROGRESS! but it's all the little ones on the way that are the truer changes and why therapy helps even when we can't see it at the time. In the short term it feels frustrating (at least that's been my experience) but you are changing little by little it's just that it's from the inside out rather than on the outside in where we usually look for change.
That's exciting with the painting