I really wanted to talk about my whole sleeping and not wanting do anything versus only getting 4 hours of sleep, feeling energized, not wanting to sleep, and feeling able to accomplish everything, but instead you (we) spent the whole session talking about my alcoholic family and my dad's girlfriend. I really wanted to talk about that, but I know you'll probably just tell me to find a routine, make a schedule, take melatonin, and sleep. Those things are just easier for you to say than for me to actually do. My mind/thoughts just don't slow down for me to accomplish that. I can make a schedule and try to have a routine, but thoughts will start coming and I won't be able to stick to it, or I'll have so many thoughts (of things I want to accomplish & worry) that I don't even want to take melatonin or if I do I just think right over it, or I have set such high goals that I get up really early to start my day. I just wish you could understand. I'm tired of this not getting out of bed versus not sleeping much and both of those combined with the racing thoughts and worry. I really wanted to talk to you about medication- it's not giving in, I just want help. You asked if I wanted an appointment in 3 or 10 days and suggested 10 since I've seemed to have been doing better at the end of last year and now. I should have told you 3 so we could discuss this and not have went along with your 10 you suggested. I don't know what your email policy is either.